I have a blog? OH yeah!!!

So long time no post eh? Well guess what? IVE BEEN BUSY!!!

I got a job!

I've been doing summer courses!!!

I've been working on a new Youtube Channel with a couple of friends!!!

I've been playing super mario smash brothers!!!

Yeah okay that last one maybe I could have sacrificed a couple of mins to write something, but what do you think I'm doing right now?!?!?!

But listen up people, because that's not the most exciting news that I have to share. Maybe, JUST maybe, I may have met someone, and it may or may not affect my relationship status on facebook. And you know that shit is serious when I'm talkin' bout facebook! (Note: serious face -> :| )

So yeah, life's been busy, and I'm hoping to write more blogs and make more videos, but I'm just swamped with academic, work and social lives at the moment (and I don't even have to lie about it!!! :D)

SO PEACE OUT YO!!! *does awkward gangsta sign*

C-Dawg (aka Cheryl)

So I am currently sitting here:



Working on some stuff for my History of Christian Thought class, and I feel so amazing. It's incredible how after such a long and hard year full of changes and heart break and cold miserable - ness, I can sit here and feel so at peace: so happy. I don't have a boyfriend, my friends aren't here, in fact I haven't seen any of my friends in a week, but yet I don't feel lonely, I feel elated and content. Because I know that I'm not alone. I feel it when look upon this beautiful landscape, I feel it when the wind blows through my hair, and I feel it as the sun beams down on my face. I'm never alone, because He is always with me.

The love of God is overflowing in me. Its pouring out of me and I can't contain it. There isn't anything I want right now, other then to just stay here and sit in His presence.

( But don't worry! I still miss you Kelsey!!! <3 )

No internet Blues? NOT HERE!!!

So I have been living without internet for about 3 weeks now and most of you are thinking:

Wow, with the addiction that Cheryl has, she must be dieing!

Well guess what wonderfully clever reader, I'm not! I'm thoroughly enjoying being free from the evil clutches of Youtube and Facebook. I've been keeping up with chores, exercising, studying, and doing the things that need to be done. I've been more apt to go outside, I've feel like I have more time and energy, and I'm realizing how addicted I have been to the internet.

I would love to never have the internet in my apartment again, however seeing as how A) my roommate told me that she wants it and B) its kind-of important to have in some cases, I need to get it. However I am going to wait till my roommate moves back in with me in August.

So all in all, I will be less frequent in Blog posts, not that its a huge change from the norm, haha.

Sad Face

:(

My Summer Plans

Hey Blog followers!! Tomorrow is the last day of school for this semester! And you know what that means?

You are going to be posting more?

Heck no! That would be a miracle! It means that Cheryl is going to get busier!!!

Busier?!?!?! HOW?

Well, consider the following:

 - I am now doing summer school through to the end of June

 - I'm going to be applying for a second job on top of the one I have now

 - not to mention that I need to start working more at my first job

 - and I will be participating in as many activities as I possibly can at church and with the fam. 

So as you can see, I will be one busy Cheryl.

So I've revised a schedule of what my summer will consist of:

Monday - Friday I will have school from 9 to 12 in the morning. I will be going to church at 12 everyday, and then mondays, wednesdays and thursdays I will be working at my first job, then the rest of the week will be open to work about 24+ hours at my second job. 

But Cheryl, when will you have time for your intense social and dating life?

Silly imaginary reader of my blog that is asking me silly questions: I will be lonely. So lonely. 

Certain people who I am living with will be gone for the summer, and certain people of whom I've been seeing are busy too, and apparently don't have time for me and forget about me and stand me up (I'm not bitter I swear). But I have a couple loving people who will be in the Bay for parts of the summer and my cousins are coming to visit me in July once school is done. 

But on the plus side by the end of the summer I will most likely be able to afford the much needed CAR!!!! That will allow me to drive myself to and from various destinations. So all in all: my summer will be awesome!!!

My Day

I have no idea why I'm posting this... seeing as how I have NO time to do ANYTHING!!!

So here's the layout of my day:

Wake up: LATE!!! OMG!!!

Go to Church 

Go to the Landlord to pick up the keys

Go to the dollar store to pick up safety pins

Go to Kelsey's to get ready for the bowling thing later

Go to the bowling thingy till 6

RUN HOME and shower and change to go to stations of the cross for 7

Get home prolly around 8 or 9 and get changed to go out to the Pub

Get home God knows when and finish packing!!!

Get up tomorrow morning at 6 AM to start moving!!!

So that is the synopsis of my day. It doesn't seem like its that busy but its very daunting and I'm dreading tomorrow!!! At least I wont be drinking at the pub!!!

Brown Balloons

Have you ever seen a brown balloon? They are SO UGLY!!!!!!

Change of THE plan...

So all my life I've had a plan. Go to University, go to teacher's college, get a job, get married, have kids, then turn 25. Well guess what. That plan is gone down the drain. And for the last couple months, I've pretty much had no plan. I've just been going along doing what I've been doing, not really knowing where its going. 

And if you know me at all, you know that it was killing me on the inside. I hate not having a plan... especially since it was THE plan that I've had since I was 5 pretty much. 

But now I have a new plan. And part of the plan is: to not have a plan!

Well first of all, I have made a new career decision. I'm not going to be a teacher any more. I know I know, if you know me really well this is a BIG DEAL. But here's why: 

First of all, I don't know if I will actually ever get a job teaching. SO many people are going to school to be teachers now, and I really don't want to substitute for 5 or more years before I actually get a job. Because honestly, subs do nothing. Also, with my English degree there isn't really anything else out there that I would have a passion for, so I was at a loss of what I could do till I get a teaching job. 

So I found out about something that really interests me: Speech - Language Pathology, and Communicative Disorders Assistant. First, SLP is the field, and CODA is a job title under that field. A CODA is a 1 year post - grad certificate at Durham and Georgian College and basically what you do is coach young children who had speech impediments from disabilities or even for those you just have stutters and stuff like that. So I will still be teaching in a way, however in a different way. Also, I have a very good friend who has a very bad speech impediment, and since we've been friends I'm the only one who can understand her, and I always feel so bad for her and all the teasing and trouble that she went through. I really want to be able to help other children get through that and help them to communicate. 

As for the marriage thing, I've realized that I'm a strong, independent woman, and I don't need to get married so soon. I am somewhat looking forward to being on my own and making it on my own while I'm young and enjoying myself. That doesn't mean I'm not going to date, but it does mean that I'm not going to force it. It doesn't have to be a goal for me to get married by a certain date. Especially one that is so close, and me without a real potential spouse. 

So yupp thats the whole kit and kaboodle. I've changed my mind and thats that. I may change it again but that's okay. I'm not some character from a book that I can write out and live out to a tee. Things are going to change, and I'm okay with that. I'm going to just go with where I take myself. 

Giving Up Facebook

I'm giving up Facebook for Lent. No facebook for 40 days.... THAT's exciting... I've decided to give it up because I feel like it is getting in the way of me doing things I should be doing. I spend way too much time on it, as well as other things on the internet. So I'm giving up Facebook, and I'm limiting my internet usage. I'm only allowed to visit each website ONCE per day. Like Youtube, I can only go check my updates once a day, and once I log off that's it for the day. The internet has become a huge problem in my life and its becoming the center of my daily activities. A normal hour on the computer goes like this:

Facebook

Youtube

Facebook

Youtube

Twitter

Youtube

Facebook

Blog

Facebook

Youtube

Facebook

Google Random Thing

Facebook about Random Thing

Youtube

Well... you get my point. I feel like it is too much for me to be doing in my life and I need to spend that time doing other more productive things... and improving my relationships with the people around me. 

Forgiveness

What does it mean to forgive someone?

That is the question that I'm facing with myself this week. In mass on sunday, the priest talked about a woman who was in a WW2 camp, and survived. Years later she was talking at her church about what had happened to her, and she saw one of the guards that ran the camp in the congregation. After the service he came up to her and apologized and begged for her forgiveness, and at first she didn't want to, but as she took his hand, she felt a wave of forgiveness come over her. Jesus teaches that we should forgive all who trespass us, and that we should be kind to our enemies and stuff like that. It's something that I've never really thought about before up until now and I'm really trying to focus on that in my life right now. I have lots of people who I have previously said that I would NEVER forgive. But now, I am really thinking that I should try really hard to do so. If that lady, who was in the concentration camp, can forgive someone who possibly tortured her, and someone who stood for something so evil, then I can forgive the people who did wrong be me. My issues and "enemies" are FAR less notorious than that, and I think that in order for me to move on as a person, and as a christian, I need to forgive those people. I WANT to forgive them. Mainly because I want people to forgive me for the things that I have done to them. Everybody deserves the chance to be forgiven. I have tried to burn a lot of my bridges and now I'm trying to build them again. 

The Old Man and His Best Friend

So there was this old man who was getting up in his years. His wife had passed a few years back, his kids were all grown and gone out in to the world and had their own kids. The only friend the man had left in the world, was his dog. Every day the man would take his dog out for a long laboring walk around the block, and he would spend his time lounging on his porch, just sitting with his best friend. 

One day in the middle of a very hot and humid summer, the man set out to take his best friend for a walk. It was particularly hot on this day, and the man was sweating and soon became very thirsty.  He was crossing the road when he was overcome with heat and lost his balance. Another man who was late for work that morning looked away from the wheel for a split second and the old man soon found himself walking down a very different road. 

His dog was still walking faithfully beside him as the old man walked up to a large golden gate. It was beautifully polished and he could see a beautiful drinking fountain on the other side of the gate. The old man suddenly remembered how thirsty he was and he went up and called out for someone on the other side of the gate. St. Peter came running with a large smile on his face and opened the gate for the old man. 

"Welcome to Heaven!" He said, "You can have and do anything in your wildest dreams! What would you like to do first?"

"Well," the man replied "I'm very thirsty and I would like to have a drink from that fountain!" He started moving towards the fountain when St. Peter stepped in front of him.

"Oh I'm sorry, but you can come in a drink as much as you want, but you can't bring your dog in here. They aren't allowed."

The old man smiled at St. Peter, and said "Then I guess I'll find somewhere else. Thank you very much." and with a gracious nod of the head he turned around and walked out through the golden gates.

The man walked for quite some time. He was getting very thirsty when he came across a second set of gates. These gates were rusted, and covered in vines. There were weeds growing up around it, and he walked up to them and called out as he had before. 

St. Peter came running towards him and opened the gates. The old man looked puzzled.

"Welcome! Come on in! There is a fountain for you to drink from and your friend is most welcome here!" he said

"I don't understand," The old man said "Why wasn't my friend allowed in at the first set of gates, but he is here?"

St. Peter smiled and placed a hand on the man's shoulder. 

"It was a test, someone who would leave his best friend behind doesn't have a pure heart. You understand the value of true friendship, and you shall stay here eternally and in eternal happiness." 

And the man and his best friend did. 

New Years Resolutions 2010!!!!!

So yeah its already the 12th but it took me a while to think about them OKAY!!! 

1. I want to do much better this semester in school. I need to put more focus into it.

2. I want to try and be more organized with everything, my school work, my room, my schedule. I already went out and bought a day planner and I am keeping track of things so thumbs up for that.

3. Improve my grammar and spelling skills. I are English major who fail at these things.

4. Do really well with my new job. I have a huge opportunity with the company I'm with and I really want to take it. 

This one is the most important to me:

5. I want to be a better person. And I mean that in more ways than one. First of all, I want to be happier. A lot of the time I seem happy, and I'm just go with the flow of the group and I'm not really in a great mood. But I want to really make an effort to see the good side of things and focus on the positive in my life. I'm going to make a daily routine of writing down 10 good things that happened to me during the day before I go to bed so that I go to bed in a good mood and I am thinking about the positive things that happened that day.

Another thing I want to work on is being more outgoing. I am some what shy when I meet new people, and then when I get to know them I tend to get out of my shell and open up more. I really want to just be myself around everyone and be outgoing to people I am just meeting. Last night at the party I tried it out and I have to say that it worked out really well. I introduced myself to (hopefully) every person that was at the party and I was friendly and outgoing to every single one. And I was myself. I'm really proud of myself for that and today I am feeling really good about myself, and I'm feeling happier already :D.

Also, I want to stand up for myself more. This comes along with not being shy as well but I have let people walk over me and say things to me that I just let go and I've let people pick on me and I don't do anything about it. Well I'm not going to just let it happen anymore. I'm going to stand up for myself and not be pushed around. Now I know I have to pick my battles, and I'm not going to be getting upset over every little thing, I just want to be a stronger person who isn't going to take crap from people.

Which leads into my next point: I have always been a "follower", but never a leader. I really want to improve on my leadership skills and take more initiative on my own, rather than waiting for others to take the lead. I'm not so sure HOW to go about that as of yet but I'm going to figure it out.



Well thats about it I suppose, I guess those are my 5(or so) resolutions for this year. #5 is kind of a bunch rolled into one category but you get the gist.